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It's been a while, since my last write. Well, I just suddenly remember and have a will to come back. Even though, nobody will read it anyway haha.

Today, I just realize something, it's seems to be, that I just became a sentimental person. I got angry so bad, I start to look backward, see past. I don't feel like I can't even make people stay out of my anger. I just can't understand why I became that mean. This night, this full of tears night, I start to understand myself, I try to understand, Why?  Why I should feel this way, it just like in don't trust anybody anymore.

This is silly, in the next 6 month, someone will become my husband. We've been together for nearly 5 amazing years.  That 5 amazing years, is full of things, and yes,  those thing come with different colors, yes, rainbow will never come and saturated as a beauty unless there's a heavy rain before. So the conclusion is, that we've been through a lot.

Oke, oke. That 3rd paragraph, just forget it. U know, lots of people said that, before those marriage ceremony, couples will facing lot of troublesome. Yeah, sure, it's kinda true. We've been fight a lot. It's getting worse when it comes to weekend. Why? Because Saturday and Sunday, that's all we have to to meet, and any other couples usually do. But when we faced with problems, then weekend is no longer a good day.

In this kind of moment. When people said it just a normal issue that we'll going to have. Fights and arguing. But u know what, sometimes, for me, it just came with a question. People said, that worse moment before marriage is a test. But in the other side, what if all that troubles and difference that lead us onto arguing is just a sign. A sign of What? I don't quite sure. Do 2 people who in love will fights along Way? Do love really don't heard like a love anymore when u close, close enough to become an eternal couple?

Don't people meant to be loved with someone that Love you? I mean, loving and caring. Do it just like a little bit twisting mind. What if u feel bit scared with someone you Love? Can't you live with that person for the rest of you're Life?

I just hoping the best, I just hope that all this stuff, will soon disappear, and I ask God, to make it better.


 I'll end this blablabla post. I'll see you when I see you, :*